(photo credit Michelle Edgerton)
I’ll be honest with you guys….. Its been a REALLY shitty month. Just one of those months where nothing goes your way and your universe kinda crashes around you. I’ve been in a major funk but am slowly pulling myself out of it and reminding myself that you know what? Sometimes shit happens. And that’s ok. Eventually I will explain here what’s been going on, but for now I’ll just admit that I’ve been feeling devastated and disappointed. But that, too, shall eventually diminish and pass. Time heals all wounds?
In the meantime, there is so much I am also grateful for. So what better way to brighten the day (with Hurricane Sandy looming outside) than to list some of those things….
I’m grateful for my family, and the unconditional love they give me. My parents have been such role models in my life and I am eternally grateful for their open minds, and that they always put my happiness above all else. No matter wether they agree or disagree, they support my decisions and do everything they can to help me self-actualize my life.
I’m grateful for Aviv, who has been my beacon of light, who is my constant in an ever changing world.
I’m grateful for my capacity to love, because even though it means I risk opening myself to a world of pain, the beauty and richness it adds to life is beyond compare. To aptly quote the ever wise Dumbeldore ….
“Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, and above all, those who live without love”
I’m grateful for my friends, who have rallied around me when things fell apart and my seams unraveled. Their love, jokes, hugs, banter, constant support and shoulders to cry on made everything bearable.
I’m grateful for perspective, that is helping me let go of small things that don’t really matter. Finding out I have to find a new home in the next couple of months? It caused me so much anxiety at first, but at least we can afford a decent roof over our heads. Having my brand new iPhone 5 stolen right under my nose while out on a Halloween party with friends? Its just a thing. A replaceable thing. Right? What’s the use of anger, when I can let it go and focus on manifesting positivity. There may be a lot of crap happening in my life right now, but I have my health and Aviv and my family and my friends and a beautiful, fun future to look forward to.
The winds are howling around me as hurricane Sandy quickly approaches, so I will post this before we lose power. We’re hoping the power won’t be out for too long and that it doesn’t flood. Wishing everyone safety the next couple of days. I know I will be snuggled at home, with a stocked kitchen and lots of candles and firewood and books to try to make it cozy. Take lemons and make lemonade, right?